03/01/2003 - 6:31 p.m. | jesus

OK, I am almost sure I am having some sort of anxiety attack. I feel really warm and there's the knot in my stomach or possibly my heart, and terrible, paranoid thoughts flutter about. I'm going to die, I do believe. Or maybe just cry... Not so fucking happy now, hmm? Anyway, can't let myself get self-destructive (even the mild ways in which I attempt it). I'll just lie down and try not to think... I'm sure I'll feel better in a while. This is just really one of those times when you'd like someone to hold you. I'm sure there will be less gay entries than this one later on. I'm sorry?